Day of wastage -I
I had planned to get up early last evening and set the alarm in my mobile phone for 7:30 -though not early by any standards; but since I went to bed at 3:30 in morning ,7:30 becomes early. Before setting alarm for morning, I always know that I am leaving my bed at set time; but I always set it with a resolve that next day is going to be different.
As planned, alarm started ringing sharp at 7:30-machines are always punctilious, they never fail you. But as usual ,I grabbed the mobile and put off the alarm and slid under my comforter; the morning-sleep at the time when you should leave your bed but don't want to get up is finest of all sleeps ,I call it sweet sleep for I can give any thing to get few more minutes of it.
Though I know to get up early in order to be punctual for set schedule is necessary for living stress free life, I lack motivation to give up those minutes of sweet sleep. For quite some time I am not motivated to do any thing concrete and spend most of time in sleeping or purposeless internet surfing. I feel somewhere in my subconscious, I have realized that whatever goals I have set for myself, wouldn’t not see light of day, so, motivation to work hard and become punctual is no longer there. But I am no looser, I have been trying to motivate myself that if I work hard and be punctilious, I may ensure a respectable life style for remaining of my life and most important ,I will be able to help my family .But, for some time I am having a feeling that I am future blind- I can't make my self to realize that if I continue to live life the way I am currently living, I am sure to see a bleak future ahead-and life seems to have lost it music for me .However, I have and will never loose hope for a good life ,where very aspect of life become a soothing music. I am sure this phase will pass and I will again live a normal life.
I finally left my bed at 10'Oclock and as a regular habit turned on my computer and checked for any new emails and messages on some social networking websites. I was still feeling lazy, not to go to department; but, somehow I managed to take a bath and a quick breakfast. Before leaving for school, I called to my family and asked to check some information about bank account number my dad has given me for transferring money into it from my account, I then called my bank to give them revised information about the account where money has to be transferred.
I had some over-due-date books to be returned to library, so, I put together all those books and arranged them in cloth bag . At around 11'oclock I left for school along with the bag-heavy lode-with good sweating and feeling little stress in back I reached library. The person at library desk told me that I could have renewed the books over phone, I felt indignation about a young girl standing nearby who had told me otherwise about book renewal, I didn’t say anything to young brat but felt bat about whole thing.
After I was done with my work at library, I headed straight way to Jason’s Office-Jason is a technical staff at department. I asked Jason about the trigger circuit for LED-Jason had told me few days back that he will design tiger Circuit for LED and I should check with him after few days-but to my dismay, he hasn’t done any thinking about how to design the circuit, but assured me it shall be ready for next week; feeling of dismay was taken over by feeling of hope that somehow I will be able to make LED run.
I went to my office and grabbed my bag, before leaving for my apartment I checked with Sandra about schedule of Dr. Lichti and came to know he is not in department for over a week from now. I reached my apartment and straight way checked a favorite social networking website and did find some gals online, contacted some of them and got response from few; one chick was the type I would like to be friend with, as she was thinking type, but after few mutual emails with her she felt I am imposter and stopped communicating ,I felt little heart broken, Other chick also responded for some time but held back after I told her I am little shy type. I wrote both of them explaining that I may be the guy they are looking around online, but to no avail, they have made their mind that I am not their type guy.
Today may be other waste day , but somehow I was motivate to write today’s happening in here ....this post is not finished yet
As planned, alarm started ringing sharp at 7:30-machines are always punctilious, they never fail you. But as usual ,I grabbed the mobile and put off the alarm and slid under my comforter; the morning-sleep at the time when you should leave your bed but don't want to get up is finest of all sleeps ,I call it sweet sleep for I can give any thing to get few more minutes of it.
Though I know to get up early in order to be punctual for set schedule is necessary for living stress free life, I lack motivation to give up those minutes of sweet sleep. For quite some time I am not motivated to do any thing concrete and spend most of time in sleeping or purposeless internet surfing. I feel somewhere in my subconscious, I have realized that whatever goals I have set for myself, wouldn’t not see light of day, so, motivation to work hard and become punctual is no longer there. But I am no looser, I have been trying to motivate myself that if I work hard and be punctilious, I may ensure a respectable life style for remaining of my life and most important ,I will be able to help my family .But, for some time I am having a feeling that I am future blind- I can't make my self to realize that if I continue to live life the way I am currently living, I am sure to see a bleak future ahead-and life seems to have lost it music for me .However, I have and will never loose hope for a good life ,where very aspect of life become a soothing music. I am sure this phase will pass and I will again live a normal life.
I finally left my bed at 10'Oclock and as a regular habit turned on my computer and checked for any new emails and messages on some social networking websites. I was still feeling lazy, not to go to department; but, somehow I managed to take a bath and a quick breakfast. Before leaving for school, I called to my family and asked to check some information about bank account number my dad has given me for transferring money into it from my account, I then called my bank to give them revised information about the account where money has to be transferred.
I had some over-due-date books to be returned to library, so, I put together all those books and arranged them in cloth bag . At around 11'oclock I left for school along with the bag-heavy lode-with good sweating and feeling little stress in back I reached library. The person at library desk told me that I could have renewed the books over phone, I felt indignation about a young girl standing nearby who had told me otherwise about book renewal, I didn’t say anything to young brat but felt bat about whole thing.
After I was done with my work at library, I headed straight way to Jason’s Office-Jason is a technical staff at department. I asked Jason about the trigger circuit for LED-Jason had told me few days back that he will design tiger Circuit for LED and I should check with him after few days-but to my dismay, he hasn’t done any thinking about how to design the circuit, but assured me it shall be ready for next week; feeling of dismay was taken over by feeling of hope that somehow I will be able to make LED run.
I went to my office and grabbed my bag, before leaving for my apartment I checked with Sandra about schedule of Dr. Lichti and came to know he is not in department for over a week from now. I reached my apartment and straight way checked a favorite social networking website and did find some gals online, contacted some of them and got response from few; one chick was the type I would like to be friend with, as she was thinking type, but after few mutual emails with her she felt I am imposter and stopped communicating ,I felt little heart broken, Other chick also responded for some time but held back after I told her I am little shy type. I wrote both of them explaining that I may be the guy they are looking around online, but to no avail, they have made their mind that I am not their type guy.
Today may be other waste day , but somehow I was motivate to write today’s happening in here ....this post is not finished yet
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